Isn't it so weird to know something so well, that your father is absolutely oblivious to?
Like, for example, the fact that she wants and is eventually planning a divorce. Going to get a job to save money for it. Thinking about apartments.
It makes me feel miles away from him. Like I'm acting. Like I don't wanna talk to him, believe he's okay. Its sad. I listen to what he says, but not wholeheartedly.
Maybe she has poisoned me from him? I mean, he is far from a good father, but I can't get close to him. I feel like it wouldn't be... Right. Knowing the things I know. How he treated mom. What mom is going to do now or in three years. Most of all, knowing he is a selfish father.
And knowing if it comes down to it, I'm going with mom.
I'm feeling so confused right now..
-Bean
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